Thankful but wishing I could not have to be

People have been wonderful to me the past few days. Janey's teachers are so incredibly supportive, my friends are there for me in every way, people have been offering help right and left. I am very grateful, but I have an inside feeling that I wish I didn't have to be in a situation to be thankful. I would rather be helping someone else. I don't like to be helped, and I wish I didn't have to be. I wish Janey and I didn't need the help.