Janey and the Eclipse

 Seeing a total eclipse of the sun has been something I've wanted to do ever since I was aware such things existed.  So last week's eclipse, which was total in parts of my home state of Maine, was a must-see for me.  Luckily, we have dear family friends that also wanted to see the eclipse, and we all (fifteen people total, from their extended family and the five of us!) headed to Presque Isle, Maine for the big event.

In the weeks leading up to the trip, I was nervous about how Janey would do.  She likes car travel, but lately, not long trips as much, and this trip was going to be about seven hours each way if we didn't stop at all, and you know we are going to be stopping!  With Janey's moods, if we had hit the wrong mood cycle for the trip, it could have been close to a disaster.  But, as with many things on this special trip, we hit it just right.  I am pleased to say Janey could not possibly have been much better for the whole trip!

We rented a minivan, and left very early Sunday morning.  The five of us (Janey's brothers in their 20s, William and Freddy, and Tony and me) are all early risers.  We were out of the driveway by 5:30am, which was a good decision.  The traffic had been a worry, but it was light, and it stayed light the whole ride up.  We drove up slowly, stopping often for bathroom breaks and food and coffee.  Janey slept some, but mostly spent the ride as she spends much of her time at home, watching videos on her tablet or (non-calling) phone.  We hot-spotted her off our phones, and aside from a few spots when we hit the uninhabited woods of Maine north of Bangor, we had good coverage.  It can get tiring to hear the shows Janey likes over and over and over---the theme song from Vamperina is etched in my mind---but it's worth it to keep her happy and cheerful.  We packed lots of food she likes, and we stopped for her fast food favorites---Burger King hash browns and later some Wendy's nuggets and fries.  And of course coffee---something we all drink.

Very early start!

We got to the hotel about 3 pm, and there met up with our friends who got there shortly afterward.  I wondered how Janey would react to seeing her favorite adult friend Maryellen in a place so far from where both of us live, but she didn't seem surprised or confused.  I'd told her in advance she'd see Maryellen, of course, but I think even if I hadn't, she would have just accepted it.  Life must sometimes seem like that to her on an everyday basis---odd things happen she isn't sure of the reasons for and she has just learned that's how life is.

Janey loves hotels, which she calls "hotel houses", as a general rule, and she did very well at this one too.  They feature endless hot showers and the fun of choosing a bed from the two in the room, and usually a breakfast buffet.  They are a change of scenery that isn't too radical a change for her, I think.  Unlike a lot of people with autism, Janey is pretty good with changes, as long as she has familiar people around her and can have the comfort of her  videos and music.  

And the actual eclipse?  One thing I wondered about a lot is whether Janey would notice how strange it all was---to have night suddenly appear during the day.  I told her about it, explained it as best I could, but I don't know what she understood.  And as with seeing her friend far from home, Janey didn't seem terribly surprised by the eclipse.  She was happy out in the big field we watched it in---but I think that was because she had goldfish crackers and her videos and lots of family and friends around who seemed to her to be oddly exuberant over what I think she saw as a pretty regular afternoon.  We did have her look through eclipse glasses as the sun started to get covered, and asked her if she saw how the sun was getting covered, and she gave a mechanical "Yes" and pushed the glasses away.  

Janey and Tony during totality

For the rest of us---WOW.  If you ever have a chance to see a total solar eclipse---grab the chance.  To say the eclipse was life-changing is not overstating it.  It was truly the most amazing thing I will ever see, I think.  The boys and Tony felt the same way.  The weather was absolutely perfect---completely clear---and the corona shining around a dark sun in a suddenly dark and chilly day with a sunset that extended all around the horizon---it was something it's impossible to describe, something that affects every sense, something that makes you feel the majesty of this universe more than you are ever expecting to feel.  

Amazing

It struck me that this experience illustrates something that I've come to understand about Janey's life.  She is living a life that is parallel to ours but in some ways very different than ours.  Of course I don't know what she is thinking, but I think she lives a much more present tense life.  She didn't anticipate the eclipse as I did (in my case for nearly 50 years, from the time as a child I read there would be an eclipse visible in Maine in the far away year of 2024).  She didn't worry about the ride up.  She didn't think about how it would be dark for only 3 minutes.  I am not saying something all sentimental like "We should all learn from that!"  I am glad I can look forward to things, can appreciate how brief and amazing such moments as totality are.  I'm glad I can understand what causes an eclipse, can treasure spending it with family and friends, can look back on it with wonder.  But I can also accept Janey's way of experiencing life is all she has known, and that she doesn't feel a loss by not experiencing it as I do.

By the ride home, the rest of us were probably getting just a touch cranky, but Janey was upbeat.  By the time we hit Boston traffic, when I was wishing as I often do that I was back in Maine, Janey was the only one still in a pretty good mood.  Just before we pulled into our driveway, we all gave her a round of applause for being such an amazingly good traveler.  Thank you, Janey, for being a special part of a trip none of us will ever forget

Janey enjoying the pre-eclipse